What Oprah has done for me.
https://www.youtube.com/embed/bzbiWJ2er2Y?version=3&rel=1&fs=1&autohide=2&showsearch=0&showinfo=1&iv_load_policy=1&wmode=transparent Let me open by saying I am Canadian. Some people might argue I don’t have the right to comment on American politics. As a human, I believe I do: especially because last night while watching US news, my heart broke. It actually ached in my chest. This morning it still does. A couple of … Continue reading Melania’s Coat — J. A. Allen
What if the one place you need to be in order to stay alive is the one place that makes you want to die? What do I do with that... On some level I’m always living in hell. When a few of my different hell’s come crashing together all at once, it doesn’t seem … Continue reading I didn’t say I wanted it to be a dialectic.
If it wasn't for Oprah today... I wouldn't be here. Lets backup. September 2016 proved to shoot me with the sharpest pain I've ever had to live with, I lost my best friend to mental illness. An illness that I too struggle to deal with everyday of my life for the last 18 years. So, … Continue reading If it wasn’t for Oprah
'It' used to be a frequent daily occurrence, for years. I always had the 'It' waiting at home, on the go, anywhere. 'It' was always waiting for me, there for me. The toughest of times I turned to 'It' and 'It' was always there for me. No matter what the day, what the time, 'It' … Continue reading Stepping Backwards
I've had a lot of these days lately. The 'I'm done' refers to my pain. My struggles everyday. My heavy heart. I just want it all to be over and see clearer days, but I'm pretty sure there isn't. Living with mental illnesses, grief, chronic pain, Ehlers Danlos stndrome, POTS, etc. It's exhausting, every damn … Continue reading
I'm shoved into this cloudy bubble, where everything is just out of reach.This cloud has a surrounding stream of every tear I've cried. Which, makes it stretchy, bubbly, cold, sticky and wet. These clouds of regret inside this bubble makes it hard to see, hard to judge, easy to miss the most important things. Here … Continue reading The Cloud of Regrets
Be well everyone! take care and keep on keepin on♥ To understand the thoughts is to cross a huge barrier, to where you might find hope, that makes all the difference.
Suicide is taking over your entire mind, body and spirit. It grabs you so hard, so deep. It's a feeling you can't understand unless you've experienced it. Appreciate it, if you don't know what I'm talking about. When suicide covers you, holds you down so tight that you can't breathe.You can't think of anything other … Continue reading The Lay Flat Method